Wednesday, July 23, 2008

The Shock Confession

"For God's sake don't ask for my opinion if you can't take it!"

Matthew and I were arguing again. It was supposed to be my day off but some emergency made me have to come in for a half day yet it was 3pm and I was still at the office. Paid overtime the whole day but that's not the point...

I sat at my desk frustrated. I had to cancel the spa for this. Deadlines keep being rushed these past few weeks. I took a few deep breaths: "I really couldn't care less Matthew, whatever you decide, it's fine. Can I go home now?" Matthew didn't answer, he was pre-occupied with the other people in my office. All of them voicing their opinions - mostly yes people.

A few moments later Matthew ushered the others out of the office closing the door behind them.

"I think I'm falling for you." He said. I looked up. He was sitting in the left arm chair of the two in front of my desk. He was looking at me in a calm manner. I didn't say a word. I just had a confused and shocked look on my face - I'm guessing.

"OK. I might just be falling in complete lust rather than love but I'm falling all the same."

"Oh OK and..."

"I want to take you out."

"On a date?"

"No. I want to take you out meaning to kill you. Of course a date." I told you he was sarcastic. I smirked. I got up and walked over to the right arm chair next to him. He watched me the whole time. I looked back at him.

"Where would you take me?"

"Dinner then back to mine."

"There's me thinking you weren't a cocky guy." He smirked.

"So this is just a 'I need to get laid' date?"

"No it's a 'I want a relationship' date."

"I told you I'm not a relationship person."

"Maybe you just need practice." He was serious this time as he said it. I stared at him for a few moments in a serious way too.

"Is it really a good idea for me to date the boss?"

"I think it's the best idea yet." I smiled to that. He was persistent, I'll give him that.

"OK. I'll see how one date goes.. on one condition."

"Anything."

"I get to go home now."

"Done." He got up and walked to the door. As he opened it he said: "I'll pick you up at 8 tonight." He smiled at me and walked out the door, closing it behind him.

Kisses, V.V.

Monday, July 21, 2008

The Update To Rule-Breaking

I spoke to Darren today and we sorted stuff out. We are mates again but we've decided not to let our hormones get the better of us. We know how strong our sexual chemistry is thus we won't hang out anymore unless we are with other people.

Nia and him are doing good. They've decided to have a new slate. We've all moved on. He hinted that he might have told her about having his own little affair with someone but he didn't tell her who. No point in ruining all chances of salvaging their long-term relationship. (She used to always tell me how jealous she was of my looks, etc. and how she felt crap next to me - I always said she was silly to think that of course but all the same she did. Hence if she found out he lusted after me she probably wouldn't be able to get over it.)

I'm really happy for them. I honestly love them as a couple.

It might be hard to believe but I truly do feel guilty for being stupid and thinking of my own selfish animalistic desires first instead of doing what was right and being a good platonic friend to both of them. Although I do have to point out "it takes two to tango" and I'm sure he feels equally guilty and stupid.

I'm going to go back to a normal "Samantha Jones" type slut rather than the cheating friend I've been recently.

I'd like to add that I would never do what I did to any of my current friends. I simply just don't see her as much of a friend as I used to. We've drifted apart and so it was sort of easy not to think of her when I was with Darren.

I've never before broken the rule of: "Though shalt not flirt with or sexually touch thy friend's boyfriend." That was the first and last time I do anything like that.

Well I'm glad I got that off my chest.

Kisses, V.V.

P.S. I'm going to get Facebook soon and feel free to comment or email me via my profile. It would be fun to get feedback on my life lol.

The Rule-Breaking

Sorry, I haven't updated in a while. It's been hectic at work. Deadlines have been swamping me. However now, I do have an experience that I just had to share with you...

Friendship. My favourite kind of relationship.

In a friendship there are obvious rules and not so obvious ones.

I broke an obvious one.

I slept with a friend's boyfriend. Nia's boyfriend.

Completely wrong I know, but before you write me off as a complete slut.. there is a context...

The friend in question isn't the closest friend but she used to be. We worked together for a while, she supported me through some stuff and I supported her through some stuff. We haven't spoken properly in months.

Her boyfriend Darren happens to have become a closer friend of mine since I've been drifting apart from her. We have more in common than me and Nia do. We have one particular interest in common - sex.

He'd been complaining to me for months about how her sex drive has been drying up more and more and the many times she's rejected him. I felt so sorry for him. Sex is important in a relationship particularly to a guy who has a sex drive as high as his. He also confessed he fancied me a little. After the confession we had a few indiscretions meaning a bit of fingering and oral here and there. No more than 4 times and we were only body parts to each other - there wasn't even any kissing. However it was still wrong.

One day, I was bombarded with texts, calls and emails from her asking: "What the hell has been going on with you and my boyfriend?!" We both denied everything and said we just had a flirty/horny sense of humour and all the flirty and horny texts was just joking around. She believed us since she knew we were both possibly the horniest people she knew. After that, I was feeling so much guilt that I couldn't see him anymore. I couldn't talk to him anymore. It was out of the question.

One night recently, I was at a very lavish work do and I got a phone call. It was him, he sounded so down, he needed to talk. I told him to meet me at mine.

When I arrived he was already at the reception with such a sad face, he had been crying. He looked like he was falling apart.

We went upstairs to the apartment, my roommates were back at the do. He sat down on the big sofa. I made him a cup of hot chocolate. It had been raining outside. We were both shivering so we needed a good hot drink. I handed him the mug, sat down next to him and asked him: "What's wrong?"
"She's been cheating on me." He said holding the mug in his hands. Barely looking at me.
"What makes you think that?" I couldn't believe the Nia I knew would do something like that. She seemed like such a moral person and when she accused me and him of going behind her back she seemed disgusted at the thought of cheating.
"She told me." He looked at me this time and was waiting for my reaction which was immediate - my jaw dropped, my eyes widened, I put down the mug.
"When? Who?" I said in disbelief.
"5 months. My best friend." He looked like he was going to cry again. I had worked with his best friend before and he too seemed like such a decent guy who wouldn't do something like this. In my head, I was also thinking she was such a bitch for getting so angry at the thought of us having a thing when during that time and for months before she had been the one cheating.
"What are you going to do?" I said in a sympathetic voice.
"I've said I forgive her. I just don't know how to let go of the years we've been together." I didn't know what to say to that. So I gave him a hug. We hugged for a long time. He held onto me tight. He obviously really needed the hug.

After the hug, I told him he could sleepover on the sofa bed we were sitting on. He said thanks and I went to get the blanket and pillows. He finished his hot chocolate. When I came back to the sofa with my arms and hands full, he took them out of my hands and put them down on the sofa. I took his mug, finished my drink and put the mugs in the sink.

When I finished washing the mugs, I came back, he was standing there, as a 6 footer he made me feel rather tiny with my 5 foot 5 inch medium frame. I looked up at him:
"Are you OK?" He was looking at me blankly as I asked him. He shook his head and his eyes became intense and woeful. I looked at him sympathetically. I hugged him another time and he clung to me even more.

As we parted from the hug instead of letting go, he clung to my waist and bent down to kiss me. Despite my initial thought of "this is wrong", I let him. I know he needed it. It was passionate hard kissing.

He undid my back zip and my red dress fell to the floor. I was left in my clear strap red bra and matching red thong. I took off my bra and he slid my knickers down and fingered me. After a while, he got up and got naked, he was really hard and I sucked and wanked his hard cock. After a while he stopped me and asked me if I had protection. I replied: "Yeh, wait a sec."

I went to get the protection in my bag on the table. I put the condom on his cock and he pulled me up to kiss him, it was even more passionate and harder. He then bent me over the sofa and put himself in me. First slowly then he got quicker and harder.

After a few minutes, he took himself out and sat on the sofa, I sat on top facing towards him, each of my legs on each side of his outer thighs, putting him in me. He thrusted, I thrusted. Him mostly though. Kissing each other and both of us playing with my breasts, I played with my clit too of course, in between our heavy moans. I eventually came. I collapsed in his arms for a minute or two.

When I got myself together, he stood up and took off the condom, I finished him off with a blowjob. He came in my mouth and I swallowed. He collapsed on the sofa. I went to drink some juice.

After a while I said: "Thanks for the orgasm."
He said: "No problem." We smiled at each other and after a bit of chit-chat we went to bed. I didn't sleep much though due to the fact I had just slept with an old friend's boyfriend. Yes, she cheated on him but I still had no right to sleep with him.

He went to back to Nia of course. I was expecting that. I'm not right for him and he's not right for me. We don't have any real feelings for each other other than lust.

We haven't been able to talk or hang out since. I'm sure our (platonic) friendship will get back on track soon though.

Kisses, V.V.