Wednesday, July 23, 2008

The Shock Confession

"For God's sake don't ask for my opinion if you can't take it!"

Matthew and I were arguing again. It was supposed to be my day off but some emergency made me have to come in for a half day yet it was 3pm and I was still at the office. Paid overtime the whole day but that's not the point...

I sat at my desk frustrated. I had to cancel the spa for this. Deadlines keep being rushed these past few weeks. I took a few deep breaths: "I really couldn't care less Matthew, whatever you decide, it's fine. Can I go home now?" Matthew didn't answer, he was pre-occupied with the other people in my office. All of them voicing their opinions - mostly yes people.

A few moments later Matthew ushered the others out of the office closing the door behind them.

"I think I'm falling for you." He said. I looked up. He was sitting in the left arm chair of the two in front of my desk. He was looking at me in a calm manner. I didn't say a word. I just had a confused and shocked look on my face - I'm guessing.

"OK. I might just be falling in complete lust rather than love but I'm falling all the same."

"Oh OK and..."

"I want to take you out."

"On a date?"

"No. I want to take you out meaning to kill you. Of course a date." I told you he was sarcastic. I smirked. I got up and walked over to the right arm chair next to him. He watched me the whole time. I looked back at him.

"Where would you take me?"

"Dinner then back to mine."

"There's me thinking you weren't a cocky guy." He smirked.

"So this is just a 'I need to get laid' date?"

"No it's a 'I want a relationship' date."

"I told you I'm not a relationship person."

"Maybe you just need practice." He was serious this time as he said it. I stared at him for a few moments in a serious way too.

"Is it really a good idea for me to date the boss?"

"I think it's the best idea yet." I smiled to that. He was persistent, I'll give him that.

"OK. I'll see how one date goes.. on one condition."

"Anything."

"I get to go home now."

"Done." He got up and walked to the door. As he opened it he said: "I'll pick you up at 8 tonight." He smiled at me and walked out the door, closing it behind him.

Kisses, V.V.

Monday, July 21, 2008

The Update To Rule-Breaking

I spoke to Darren today and we sorted stuff out. We are mates again but we've decided not to let our hormones get the better of us. We know how strong our sexual chemistry is thus we won't hang out anymore unless we are with other people.

Nia and him are doing good. They've decided to have a new slate. We've all moved on. He hinted that he might have told her about having his own little affair with someone but he didn't tell her who. No point in ruining all chances of salvaging their long-term relationship. (She used to always tell me how jealous she was of my looks, etc. and how she felt crap next to me - I always said she was silly to think that of course but all the same she did. Hence if she found out he lusted after me she probably wouldn't be able to get over it.)

I'm really happy for them. I honestly love them as a couple.

It might be hard to believe but I truly do feel guilty for being stupid and thinking of my own selfish animalistic desires first instead of doing what was right and being a good platonic friend to both of them. Although I do have to point out "it takes two to tango" and I'm sure he feels equally guilty and stupid.

I'm going to go back to a normal "Samantha Jones" type slut rather than the cheating friend I've been recently.

I'd like to add that I would never do what I did to any of my current friends. I simply just don't see her as much of a friend as I used to. We've drifted apart and so it was sort of easy not to think of her when I was with Darren.

I've never before broken the rule of: "Though shalt not flirt with or sexually touch thy friend's boyfriend." That was the first and last time I do anything like that.

Well I'm glad I got that off my chest.

Kisses, V.V.

P.S. I'm going to get Facebook soon and feel free to comment or email me via my profile. It would be fun to get feedback on my life lol.

The Rule-Breaking

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